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My first taste of reality

It is there after I smell the sent of fuel seeping through my skin itching its forever judgement. Tire treads cross my chest slowing my heart to disappointment as I gasp for deep breaths trying to maintain life. I try to stretch the length of my toes only realizing that my calfs have weakened from utter hate bottling up my ability to underrate my senses. My shoulder picks up my arm and places my hand in my focal sight, I cannot squeeze, my hand is shaking, and its covered in oil spills of dark oceans past. Breathing becomes a blessing as I start to hint laughter knowing that this is it this is the time that will forever be lost, My lips fatten up simultaneous with my eyes turning to glass. Blood spurts out of a cough and the back of my head starts to tingle, I spread my legs further apart on the ground and gently lye my arms spread apart as well. My eyes soon become closed and my body go's limp, The pictures in my head soon become reality and all I can think about is how comfortable I am. I see everyone, I see them young, beautiful and Happy, Dancing and joking lovingly with me and each other in a world of great color. What ever we wanted, it showed up...a glass of wine...sushi....a kiss...and her. She is laughing with me about our future and how we are going to be amazing but then she turned quickly toward me with seriousness, she lets go of my hand and repeats "you have to go" over and over, Its like I stopped walking and she continued. My eyes open and she returns but its very noisy and to many people are talking I hated it there it was painful. She was there... She was there..... and thats all I knew and thats all that mattered. I visited two different realities and she was in both, I come to realize one thing, there was nothing I could do to change my fate and I wouldn't change either for the world.

Two Sides of the Moon

Ladies and Gents.."Two sides of the Moon" is on line for your reading pleasure please follow the link and critique....Thanks Edward Ryan Funk

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The inevitable fight

Its constant, The fight against ourselves and the protection we surround ourselves with. The pain process from our imaginary battle to live will take over the movement with in or bone structure preparing us for the end. Its over and there is nothing we can do about it,Unless, Unless we strain or thoughts through the filter of emotional angst and wipe our hands of the failure we once endeavored. It's no longer scary, It's no longer the time to stop, the time is now to remember where you came from to see where you are going. The fluidity of our blood should flow flawless from our ancestry to our future so wrap your faith around your knuckles and charge the evil that holds you down, strike your fist through the heart of the walls that trap you and break free of it claustrophobic dust, set your self free, set your self free from you and you will be surprised of what you learn about yourself. Just remember you can only change your self if you love yourself the way you are.

Family at its finest

I once had a family that I saw one time a year, I now have a family that I see everyday, although I love them both sometimes I wish they would trade places for a while. Unfortunately, I would say the same about the opposing family and I would make them flip back. After things are the same I would wish upon my families to do so again. What could it be that I want to do this? Is it that they are of a bad family or is it that they are of a good? I am going to let them both know their options and let them decide my fate......I Let them know.......I am unfortunately writing this blog.........ALONE.

It's Time

Life as we know it has come to an end. We are no longer the young, strong, and the powerful people that we once were......We are parents....And there is nothing more amazing then that. There is one problem with being a parent in this day and age and that problem is us. We were raised in a so called traditional manner of living where morals are more important than feelings and stopping something is more important than trying to figure out why its happening. Our society has grown so fast by finding out why something is happening verses how to stop it i.e. medical and computer technology. Its time, Its time to take a step back from our selves and realize that when someone is hurt or someone is crying that we are not here to stop it but we are here to help that person find out why its happening. We are parents and not just parents to our children but to each other and there is nothing more amazing than that.

What eyes cant see through

On April 10th 2011 at 8:00pm a mini series on the discovery channel premiered called "Human Planet". With a voice over by Mike Rowe which we all know from "Deadliest Catch", amazing writing to compliment the outstanding display of cinematography made this mini series overwhelmingly superb. Now normally I wouldn't write about a mini series on the Discovery channel but this one reached out beyond our world and collapsed in our hands to provide a real life reason why the world is not going to end anytime soon.

I know, I know it sounds pretty silly but if you think about it why would any of us or even GOD want to take away such a beautiful gift such as life from the people who fight and train so hard for the well being of their families. Everyone in there own little way does do this and 90% of the time (not a statistic) it works out amazing but these people, these people have tradition, morals, life, love and most of all respect.

We as a people learn to adapt to the society we have to live in, bottom line, everyone knows and understands that but, We make our surroundings adapt to us: We need more space, well buy a bigger house, I need to get around quicker, well buy a faster car, My clothes don't fit because I've been going out to dinner at the stake house to much, well go out and get new clothes. The families they documented in this mini series didn't have to buy bigger houses or fast cars because they didn't change their surroundings instead they adapted themselves to what was given to them and survived with it and did so in such a way that documentarians took 2 to 4 years documenting their every day lives, THEIR EVERYDAY LIVES, Thats it, nothing special, them going fishing and feeding their family thats it, the only difference is they did it in powerful rapids or deadly seas or with home made spears or on top of 700ft water falls so gators can't eat them....THATS IT...

What are we doing competing against each other for nothing important? Why is it that if you have the most money, fastest car or biggest house you win....WHY?

Look real close to your family and be proud of it. Look real close to yourself and be proud of you. This is it this is what you have so love it, cherish it and make it strong because if the world does end you can at least end together.